Frozen

We belong to a forum through our agency. It's been slow lately; no new news for anyone.

And then suddenly, two girls for two families. And then one of the families gets the change for a second girl, to pick up at the same time they pick up their first.

And my stomach drops in both joy and frustration and anticipation. My eyes tear at the smallest suggestion of a new child, for anyone, anywhere. I feel frozen in time - our call will never come, it must come, it will never, ever come, what will we do when it does come?