Wish You Were Here: Photos From Vail

Marta Speaks

Marta's first word came a few weeks ago, when she started saying "HI!" every time she sees one of us, and especially when I get her up from sleeping. She has recently started saying Mama and Dada (discriminately, of course), and one morning after a particularly restful night of sleep said, "Hi Dada," when she saw Trevor. (OK, OK, this probably wasn't a real sentence, but was impressive nonetheless.) 

She has also said Num-Num when she eats for a few weeks now. But today she said her first non-typical, non-family word: Ga-gee. Of course, this means doggie, and she said it a hundred times when we were playing with our adopted dog, Suede. Then, when we went inside, I put her in her exersaucer, and she flipped the plastic frames past the baby pictures to the picture of Mosey, and hit it over and over saying, "Ga-gee! Ga-gee!" 

It was one of those movie moments that don't usually happen in real life, so I called everyone I know and no one answered. But Marta talks, and it's such a funny thing now to hear her calling me from her crib, as if she's this little cave-baby who has finally evolved into a person.

"Vail: Come Here If You Don't Have Children."

We are home from our long-awaited vacation to Vail, and we couldn't be happier. Trevor and I keep passing each other high-fives, Berit insists that everything is new ("Mom, come see our new sink! Look at our new oven!") and is so pleased to play with her toys that one week ago were boring her to tears, and Marta is literally laughing at everything in our house. I don't want to get all complain-y that we went to Vail for a week, so I'll just say this: You live, you go on vacation with your kids, you learn.

Things I've learned from our trip:

1. Always book a seat on the "airplane" (small jet) for the "lap child."

2. Always bring your children's carseats, because they'll relax in them in the plane and the rental car company's carseats are sketchy at best.

3. Wal-Mart will take anything back, even after your child has made it her own for a week.

4. Always pack toys for DURING the vacation, never assuming your kids will be so engrossed IN the vacation that they won't need material possessions.

5. Ice cream makes or breaks a vacation, especially if it's green ice cream.

6. In Vail, in the middle of the mountains, you will not see the animals you thought you'd surely see, unless you are on top of the mountains, which with kids you won't be. So don't tell your kids you will.

7. Even though you won't get a wink of sleep, don't let your children "cry it out" on vacation, because really they're just scared. But once you get home, cry, cry, cry. (The kids, not you.)

A few trip highlights:

1. Trevor and I shared a bed for about 2 hours during the entire trip, since both of our kids decided they weren't comfortable in their beds alone and Marta (our good sleeper) refused to be set down in her shabby-mattressed rental crib for even a minute, let alone for the night. (I made a nest for her in my bed and Trevor either slept in a twin bed in Berit's room or in a different room.)

2. On the plane ride there, I sat in a tiny seat with Marta on my lap next to a very kid-unfriendly man who kept saying, "It's FINE. It's FINE."

3. On our whole vacation, Marta pooped once.

4. On one particularly lovely day, I boldly put Berit in the stroller and walked the two miles into Lionshead, a village near our house. There was a detour on the bike trail that took us to the bottom of the village, and the Imagination Station (a little room set up for kids to play, which was the highlight of the children's activities in the area) was at the top of the village. Fine. However, Lionshead has no ramps, and all stairs. Determined as I was that my child would have some toddler-based fun on her vacation, I pulled the double jogger up about two hundred stairs. (Really; I'm not exaggerating to sound heroic.) Once we were done with the Imagination Station, Trevor was supposed to pick us up in the car, but he never showed up. Several hours later, I was sure he had overdosed on his cold medicine (yes, he was sick) and that Marta had drowned in her own vomit after screaming so much she threw up in her crib because he wasn't alive to hear her wake up. So I ran the two miles (hello, 8,200 feet elevation) back to the house on the highway to avoid the stair situation, in sandals, no running bra (hello, nursing breasts), up a crazy hill, adrenaline pumping to save my baby and husband, only to find out that they were gone, had just left, had somehow missed me on the road, and were completely alive.

So we're home, and it feels so good. We think we'll skip a vacation next year, and after that take the kids someplace where they'll have fun, instead of hoping they'd conform to an adult vacation. 

We're especially looking forward to the long weekend, because Trevor will be around and maybe we can make extra-special memories right here at home, where we don't have to over-pay for chicken nuggets that no one eats, where sleeping, while sketchy, is enforced, and where everyone poops regularly. 

Suddenly It's 10:30

I'm sitting on the floor of the living room, surrounded by: 

1. A warm pup

2. Folded (!) laundry

3. Packed (!) suitcases

4. Diapers -- some dirty, some clean

5. A portable DVD player unwrapped, explored, then wrapped back up to be returned

6. One (not two) baby monitor

Here's why.

1. Mosey senses that we're leaving and is nervous, and therefore is either at my heels or is sitting ON MY FEET at all times.

2. Tada! Aren't I good?

3. Tada! Let's face it. If I didn't get them packed while half of us were gone for the weekend, they weren't going to get packed until the morning of the trip.

4. How many diapers need to come with us for our travel day and first night in Vail? Could be two, could be 20. (The dirty ones just haven't been put in the garbage yet. If you're appalled by this, you might want to reference an earlier blog to become comfortable with my cleaning habits.)

5. We have a portable DVD player that is old and being held together with tape. Since Wednesday involves about 7 hours of travel time, I thought it'd be smart to buy a new, dual-screen DVD player. Turns out the only one I could find in our little town is junky and not quite the steal I thought it was. 

6. Despite coming home yesterday from Grandma and Pop's house (to which she begged repeatedly to return), Berit is currently staying overnight with Mimi and Grandpa, who will surely miss her and be missed while we're away (and who also sense our anxiety over a list of things that need to get done before we leave because....)

Hooray! We have a second showing for our house on Thursday. Which means we have to leave our house sparkling clean Wednesday morning, but which also means there is a chance we could sell it. (From Vail, nonetheless!) I suppose all of my griping about cleaning the house goes right out the window now, huh? Although, I do feel like the more I brag about this second showing, the larger the chances are that they'll pass. So that's it. Now you know, I'm not writing about it anymore. 

When Berit came home on Sunday, my mom called to tell me how special and lovely she is. And I recently had the same conversation with Trevor's mom. No one can believe that she is a stinker here at home, which I believe is fairly typical of grandparents. But I get so jealous of those people who get her all to themselves; who get to listen to her entire idea, who get to play her new game until she tires of it, who get to dance all day or wear the dress-up clothes she chooses for them all day or just have two arms to hold her all day. (This is a recurring theme in my blog, I know. Therapy? Chocolate?) I know I'm giving my girls the gift of sisterhood, of which I could not be more pleased because I have a wonderful sister and I'm so grateful they'll have each other. And they do truly love each other. But oh, you should see Berit when she's with my mom or Trevor's mom or my sister. She's in heaven, showing off her newest moves and telling them her brightest ideas. It's like she knows she's their center of attention and she runs to them, out of the darkness of our boring home hoping for excitement and action and she relaxes right into their arms, like "finally, thank you." It makes me so happy for her and also so sad for me. Oh that sounds very whiny; sorry. I want to be that person, not the one who has to make her stand in the corner because she's being a stinker (probably because after breakfast she plays alone while I put Marta down to nap, or because I have to make dinner/change the laundry/pick up Marta instead of putting her up on my feet like an airplane for an entire hour). I know I'm a good mom to my girls, but it's so hard to be the mom I want to be to my daughters individually. I write about Berit because Marta's needs are met, and I have to be with her right now. Berit has the opportunity to be with other people who love her, and of course I want her to be with them, because she thrives. Oh, in a year it'll all be different, right?

Thanks Friends, and My WOW Friend

Thanks girls for your comments about messiness and happiness. Everything worked out great, my house is spotless, and I just spent the evening alone save VH1 and a bit o' cookie dough. :) Trevor decided to stay one more night -- yay! I am foregoing another morning of sleeping in tomorrow, though, but I'm happy to since it's for my amazing pal Ellen, who's doing two legs of a triathlon tomorrow. We originally decided to do it together, with our friend Sarah, but I cancelled and so did Sarah, and Ellen surged ahead to do both the swim and bike -- toughest parts, if you ask me -- all on her own. So Marta and I are going out first thing in the morning with big signs to wait for her at the finish line. 

Marta is sick, just a few days before our big vacay. Seems to just be a runny nose and sneezes, but possibly an ear infection because she's tugging, tugging, tugging. Of course this happens on the same day that she is denied health insurance. Yup! We tried to switch health insurance, because ours was pretty feeble and we're hoping for more children. Turns out her bicuspid aortic valve is a big red flag for insurance companies. Oh, Marta. 

Anyway, other than that we're having a lovely time together just doing baby stuff. But man, did I ever forget how b-o-r-i-n-g baby stuff is! It's waaay slower than toddler stuff. We miss our spunky 2-year-old, who's having the time of her life with Grandma, Pop, Uncle David and Aunt Andrea. Yes! Aunt Andrea! The Best, Greatest Person In The World!

So they return tomorrow, Ellen's race is tomorrow, and tomorrow I pack our bags for Vail! Looking forward to having Trevor all day, every day and family time all the time. And a great week spent with friends!

A Relaxing Night Alone (Almost), Gone, and My House is a Mess

Trevor took Berit down to Greenville for the night, so he could attend a concert with the men in my family and my mom could get her Berit fix. That left me home alone with Marta, who is needy but not really messy, takes three to four naps a day, doesn't require cooking and, the best part about this whole thing, goes back to sleep soon after waking in the morning, meaning tomorrow I can sleep in until, like, 9 if I play my cards right. 

Except. The real estate office called, and we have a showing tomorrow. No interest in our house whatsoever for two months, yet I get one night and two days to myself and now I'm faced with the not-so-happy reality that my house is, in its fairly clean state, trashed. As in, boxes with garage sale leftovers hanging around the laundry room, baskets and baskets of laundry to put away, toys shoved in every possible nook, kitchen countertop full of various fruits on trays and boxes too oddly-shaped for the pantry, deck with toys, garage with toys, yard with dog poop, etc. Aside, of course, from the general bathrooms/wood floors/carpets that all need cleaning because that's what's expected from a normal, sanitary household. 

I didn't, didn't, didn't want to admit to Trevor (on the phone, lounging on my parents' deck) that I needed a hand cleaning it all before the morning, but really I do. I mean, I feel like a person should be able to clean her own house, or you don't buy that house, or you don't buy all the junk to muck it up inside the house. It's not really that I need help cleaning the house. I just need someone to hold the baby so I can clean the house. So I'm wondering: Do other moms live this way, too, or would all of my friends be able to whip it into shape before morning, baby on hip? Do they keep things constantly clean, always on top of it, or do they live in a messy house most of the time? 

In the end I called my mother-in-law and asked if she'd come take Marta on a walk in the morning. Overly generous soul that she is, she said she'd be here first thing in the morning and she'd bring my father-in-law, who'd take care of the yard for me. Wonderful, I know, but embarrassing and more than a little ridiculous, I think, that I called them. Any thoughts? Truth, please.

Throw Up, and the Terror That Ensues

Funky day yesterday, which led into an even funkier night. Berit was overflowing with excitement Thursday morning, because we were going to her friend's house where they have one of those blow-up bouncers. "We'll take turns jumping," she told me, doing one of those excited moves where kids jerk their knees and elbows like they're almost going to jump but don't. So we get to our friends' house, and her little buddy there is spirited, as they say. Which is good for Berit, who is so serious. But Berit got immediately intimidated, and spent the majority of the morning clinging to my leg while the other children had a blast playing in the living room. When it was time to go outside to the bouncer, Berit was actually shaking with excitement. She told all the moms she was going to jump, and she was first when it was blowing up. So once it's inflated, the other girls take their shoes off and jump in. (I should mention that the other girls are just-turned-two and 22 months old. Berit is the oldest at 2 1/2. Doesn't make a huge difference but to me it makes this whole thing even more ridiculous, since she's "wiser." Arguably.) Berit right away backs up to me and puts on this mask of avoidance. "Let's go inside," she says. She clearly doesn't want to jump while the others are in there. Long story short, she finally gets in after much bribing with cookies, only to see an ant and flip out and require that we leave the playdate altogether. 

So yes, we had a busy day, because we had another playdate scheduled for that afternoon. We went to my friend Beth's house. She has twin boys, who are also 2 1/2, and Ellen came with Liam, 3, and Brennan, almost 8 months (three days Marta's junior). We had pizza and played and all was calm and fine and fun. She's used to it there and only freaks when the dog approaches, which was twice. 

For some reason, though, while I was taking my shower at 11 o'clock at night, she began throwing up. She threw up a couple more times during the night (Marta, not to be outdone, woke up at 3 a.m. and stayed up until 5:30 a.m.), and woke up with bells on this morning. 

I of course am now confined to the house for the whole of the day, waiting for her next bout of terrible throw-up, which will mean five more loads of laundry that might just need to be thrown away, several baths, another good cleaning of the tub, and finding something to do with Marta that keeps her out of the line of fire. 

Or, Berit will be just fine. Who knows?